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Friday, June 12, 2009

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I always felt like "that was the stupidest decision you ever made", "what the hell is wrong with you", "dude its too late" and when I realized that, there is no room for me to fix the situation. It always happened to me, and I don't like it when it’s happen. Trust me no one like those thing... People I'm talking about appreciation.

I just received one bad news from one of my bestfriend, Wancha's father died, and rest in peace in Kelantan. She's one of my classmates. Semoga roh arwah bapanya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dalam golongan orang- orang yang beriman, Al- fatihah...

I always eager to have a perfect family, without been realized that I should be thankful that I still have both mother and father, although they were not perfect, but still, they love me, eventhough they not showing their love to me. I guess I'm very lucky to have them, compared to my friend who just lost or already lost their father and mother. I completely understand how the feel to be lost, because I also had an experienced lost someone that I love. Way back then, I always thinking, "I should treat them better" or "why I can't be nice to them"... I guess this is the fact that people always regret after something not very nice happened to us and people sometimes not think twice in making a decision.

Again, I'm talking about the appreciation here. I never show appreciation to my parent, and I think I'm the most ungrateful son. I always disobey their order. Many of my friend can get whatever they wants, just asked their parent and they will get it.

Me: Mak, adik nak beg tue boleh tak?
Mak: Beg yang lama kan ada lagi? boleh pakai lagi kan?
Me: Tapi mak, adik tengok kawan adik beli beg baru mak.... cantik...
Mak: Sabar la dik, nanti mak ada duit mak belikan utk kamu..
Me: Ala... Mak ni...
Mak: Mak mintak maaf dik, Mak tak mampu nak belikan kamu beg baru...

Those memories flashed back in my mind, I still remember after I said "Ala... Mak ni..." I can see tears in her eyes. Korang tau tak, kalau kita buat mak kita menangis, walaupun hanya la setitik air mata, dosanya sama dengan sebesar lautan didunia ni? I can imagine how sinful I am; because I still remember I make her cried so many times.

My dad, I don't know how many time I broke his heart into pieces. I always quarrel with him, and I always cause him into troubles. Well I believe, as a human being, we will never satisfy with what we have. Always want more than what we can effort, and I guess this is the fact.I don't know why I write all these, and I don't even know whether it is right or wrong telling all of these in this blog. Actually there is lot more story that I want to share, but I can't stop my tears from falling down. Thats make me stop sharing my story.

P/S: Mak, Abah adik sayang sangat kat mak n abah.

P/S 2: sekali lagi aku ucapkan takziah untuk keluarga wancha diatas pemergian bapa beliau ke Rahmatullah. Semoga roh nye dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dalam golongan orunk2 yang beriman. Al-fatihah....

7 tenggelam:

his name is padin said...

:(
sedih bace entri ni.

takziah wancha

Namhkir said...

Takziah buat Wancha & his family...

Aliya Azmi said...

If u feel reluctant to post in the public, u can always write everything but save in draft. it makes u feel relieve :)

im glad than u shared your story with us, danny.

sempena apreciation, i want u to know, i sayang u, naipok! <3

(Al fatihah.)

fr3akisme said...

"I should treat them better" or "why I can't be nice to them"

sometimes... people actually should treat us better n b nice wif us... but in reality, people usually not satisfy wif what they got... they only concern how we suppose to treat them...

come on, its a fact... n u should not blame urself as what happen past... its happen to me too... people wanted us to be nice wif them, but is they concern bout us??

if this is about family, so i guess ur rite... we do have to treat them well... actually aku pon nk post cter psl nie... its happen to me too dude...

hans said...

itulah....
takziah untuk mereka yg kehilangan insan2 tersayang
pada sapa2 yg masih ada jagai dan hargailah mereka seadanya

sHuHaDa said...

aite danny,

nice entry here..em btw dont feel bad bout it coz u r such a good son. u know what was wrong and what was right. that great compared as them who never realise it till they lost it.u still got time to treat ur parents well starting from now.

4 me family bind u to one another. no matter what happened and how bad it is u still bind into it. wheter u like it or not family is ur ASSET.

great to have lovely parents compared as them who lost it. so appreciate them. u 'll b fine here and after..:)

salam takziah juga wat keluarga kwn u..

DaNnY oCeaN said...

padin- klu ko sedih, aku lagi sedih masa wat entry ni...

aliya- no aliya.. the reason why i wrote this entry is because i want to share my feeling with other.. my best friend not available to pinjamkan his telinga lately.. he been busy with his worked.. sedih aku...

pudin- i guess we didnt know how to express our love to them right? but it doesnt mean we didnt love our parent, just we cant figure it out the way to show the love...

shuhada- i dont know what else to say, but thank u....